I took this recording after HKPhil’s rehearsals with Maestro Jaap😄(That means I played the violin a lot 😆)
I was little tired than yesterday, but I could concentrate better.
I hope I can learn new stuffs through this 50days…
夕方に録音したらアップするのに時間かかって大変でした。
I tried to wake up early and recorded this.
I have to find the way to get into music quicker …
Have a nice day.
早起きして録音すると音楽に入るまでに(集中するまでに)凄く時間がかかる。どうやったらすぐに集中できるのか色々考えなければいけない…
今日は曇ってますねぇ。
仕事に行く前に録音すると集中するのが大変。
Once I start care about details of techniques of playing, Music does not flow.
When I think about music line,it goes better…
I thought I know those , but once I start to record my playing, it shows I do not know those so well 😅 Long way to go…
It is good to face myself.
詳細を気にしだすと音楽が流れない。音楽の流れに集中すると色んなことが解決して行く。
知っていると思っていたのに、いざ録音となると良くは分かってないことが見える。まだまだだなぁと痛感。
自分と向き合うと言うことは悪くない😌
It is nice day , today 😊
I saw a rainbow yesterday 🌈before the HKPhil’s concert👌
Have a good day 😊
Since I would like to make my mind simple (get rid of all the evil thoughts😄), I decide to play Bach Ciaccona for 50days straight.
Let’s see how it goes.
Recording
When you start to like something, you probably feel so lucky and happy.
Those feeling is coming from your heart, so it is very pure and natural.
After that, you start to feel pain because you start to like something more and more.
Few days ago, my friend was suffering from the pain.
He is one of the musician . He performed one of the concert and it did not go as he wish.
He said he almost wanted to quit to be a musician.
I know that feeling very well.
Because he likes music so much and he care about that a lot, he feel like that.
I suffered to play one short phrase for more than five years.
Whenever I have to play that part, I was so nervous and feel like passing out:(
It is all because I like to play the music and I care about that a lot.
Since I like something , I feel warm and happy.
Since I like something so much, I feel pain .
Since I feel pain, I want to run away . But I like so much, so I have to live with the pain.
To like something is sometimes so hard.
When I strongly feel that I do not want to feel same pain ness again, I started to like something again.
Oh, well ! Life is tough.
But I think it is lots better than I
don’t know of that feeling.
After we suffer from pain, we understand other people’s pain and you wanted to be kind to them.
After I look back about my life,
I found little happiness inside.
My life is only one time, so I decide to live with the pain 🙂
To Like something or to like somebody brings you a lot of joy after all.
好きという気持ちはココロから芽生えるものだから、凄く自然でピュアなもの。
人間が頭を使って決めた道徳や倫理には当てはまらない。
そして凄く好きになると物凄く痛い思いをするもの。
先日友人が1回勝負の本番で思うように音楽を奏でる事が出来なかったと苦しんでいた。
すっごくよく分かる。
それは物凄く好きだから起こる感情。傷つき、モンモンとその事を思いながら生きていく。
私もある音楽のワンフレーズが弾けなくて5年以上苦しみ、そのフレーズを弾くときは気絶するくらい震えた。
好きだから起こる感情。
好きなのに、逃げて楽になりたいと思う感情。
だけど好きだからやっぱりズーッと考えてしまう感情。
私が好きなんだから誰にも文句言えない。
でもね、苦しくても、胃に穴があいてしまうほど辛くても、何も感じない人生よりいい。何かを、誰かを好きになると、人の痛みがよく分かるようになる。そして優しくなれる。
生きてると大変だ。
もう暫く傷つきたく無いと思ってる時にまた好きなものが出て来たりする。厄介だけど、一回きりの人生だからそれをエンジョイする事にする。
後で振り返ると、案外楽しかったし、頑張ったなあって自分が幸せだった事に気づく。
